Four days before my 20th birthday, I realized that I’m not doing much in my life. I’m a failure indeed.I thought going through the deepest pains and being at the lowest point of my life would make me say that I’m a stronger person. As I look back, I just can’t imagine how I’ve been changed by the decisions I made. Good or bad? I’m not sure. The only thing that Im sure is the fact that I’ve spent the first twenty years of my life looking for a world where there’s no suffering, no pain, only love everlasting…